sweet machine

$500-$1400…nah. I’ll stick with my $7 plastic recorder from CVS alias magic flute.

Oh, you know, just sitting here…ALONESIES

Trying to revise a formal essay for class called “The Extrovert’s Guide to Being Alone.”

So, uh, what’s up with everyone out there? Doing well? Want to go get some Vietnamese food and then shoot off fireworks in the back yard? Orienteer to the highest point in Guilford County? I meant to return that DVD you leant me and now seems…like the perfect time.

brown-headed cowbird

These they lay in the nests of other birds, abandoning their young to foster parents, usually at the expense of at least some of the host’s own chicks.

 

Birding is my new hobby. I can’t wait to go to Florida in May and spot some new species.

Three new birds I’ve spotted in Greensboro to add to my list:

• brown-headed cowbird (assholes)
• goldfinch
• house finch

things I don’t miss

getting my eyebrows waxed pork chops Paris calculus jello shooters clarinet those rats i had to ratsit when i was ten and they got out

dad and me used peanut butter to lure them back into a squirrel trap

new look

same stilted chunks of undigested emotion

enjoy!

jesus christ and a terror twilight!

I think I just realized what I have to write a story about.

pleasant morning, inevitable bad ending

I wake up in my bed alone. I stare at the wall trying to remember who I am and what I’m doing for about 10-20 mins. Pick out clothes, shower. Make coffee, eat flax cereal with unsweetened soy milk. Respond sympathetically to my sister’s text message about having to throw up during her chemistry lab. She knows I also have a sensitive disposition when it comes to sight and texture. I work on my story for a little bit. I consult with Rachel on gchat about some aspects of the story, and she gives me some good advice. Get another cup of coffee. Think about Robert Mapplethorpe and Patti Smith for a while. Kimber calls and we chat for a bit, make plans to have coffee. Listen to the Lucky Dragons. Think about this magic blanket.

Then I realize I have to go to work, and that’s when my good morning ends. Unsavory k-hole!

I am quitting this scene in one month.

pool wallz

When I am swimming at the Y, there are several messages that get sent to me there from the walls.  When I am walking in, all suited up with towel and googles in hand, I walk by a message painted on the wall that says “God is first, Others are second, I am Third.” Then, on the marker board above the pool, there is the motto of the league swim team, which is actually just four verbs, I can’t remember the first two, but the last two are “Attack” and “Decimate.” When you decimating someone, even in a swimming way, are you putting them second? Or first? Fourth?

In my fantasy pool, there are no mixed messages. There’s just this sculpture from the Scarface mansion at the end where you do flipturns.